FUCK IT

Lon don.mp3

Fuck, it is christmas again, the title, is a personal thing between me and DEMPS and JOE. Every time I miss london, i play that song, because that is the only 'link' left that i can hold on to between me and my friend. Dude I fucking miss our drunk nights together where we(you) take the guitar and just start playing. GOD. I have a couple of questions for you...

Have you given up?
It feels like I'm about to, but then everytime I listen to the song. I feel like I can continue with the whole music thing. So that means that I will have to get up on the proverbial horse, and go for guitar lessons again...

How the FUCK could you??
You were in S.A and you didn't even let me know? Maybe you didnt have my cellphone number, i mailed it to you like 3 or 4 times, i even tried to contact you after the london bombings...

Is this the way to live?
Working for MAMMON to satisfy MAMMON. Not considering that you are the most important? That music is the way to live?

Enough.
Im just depressed because it is fucking the day when MAMMON smiles the most. And that I have realized that 2,5 years has passed and I haven't gotten much better with the guitar, i was slacking. I hate myself for that. I want to make music, but the people around me wont listen, i tried with BLACK SHEEP BLASPHEMY, I am trying with BLOUMOORD. But eventually it boils down to my dedication. I fucking HATE this GODDAMNED place! I also know that I probably would hate it somewhere else as well...

Fuck all of you! Shit-fucking heads! Motherfuckers!
I am not happy, I am quite pissed off. I will let all of you know how the fuck I am feeling, even if all of you will find out when it's too late. When you finally decide to talk. It might be too late, i might be too busy....

MERRY GODDAMNED, MOTHERFUCKING CHRISTMAS!!!!