Amazingly Amazed

I don’t know, I should be used to this by now, it is essentially the story of my life anyway. Yet every fucking time I am amazed, at me being (shocked, amazed, taken aback, use whatever word you deem fit) that something didn’t turn out as I had planned. I will explain this by using some sort of algebraical terminology, I think.

In situation A, situation B is promised, and I am certain that situation B will happen, and its going to be a positive one. When situation B should arrive, it is replaced by situation C, which is the exact opposite of situation B. Prepare for the irony.

With certain people I expect situation C, lets say, with 90% of people I expect that certain situation, and still I walk into the situation still expecting the ‘better’ situation B. I am then amazed by the sheer fact that I am shocked(amazed).

To explain this ‘complicated’ situation thing, I will use an example that happened to me more than once the past couple of years.

I audition for a band(this is situation A) they then say that I am good, and that they would like to hear more from me, a couple auditions later, they say that I should be in their band(situation B), two practice sessions later they say that they found someone else for their band(situation C).

So I am making the conscious decision to cultivate an attitude of expecting the worst, hoping for the best, but mainly just fucking onward untill I die.

That is basically the story of my life.

ROCKnROLL

LeraS